Have you cleaned up your hard disk lately?

Seriously. Have u?

I just did. Partly bcoz misplaced a few important docs and some erm.. por.. eh.. photos.. stock photos, i mean.. Partly also because it's about time that i re-organize my files and folders.

Found a few junks in my laptop from zaman biler tah.. I never knew these things exist!

1- My Frodo costume for Halloween back in 2003.. Check out the hairy feet! We went to Meijer after the party barefoot. How cool was that huh?!



2- Yet another pee shot. This was taken at the Princess' Garden in Jaipur, India last year..



3- Sara's farewell dinner / Hazura's Birthday at Kunang-kunang early this year.



4- My baby picture... awwwwhhhh...


5- Marsha's note on what used to be my book of ideas... double awwwwwhhhh...

Remembering the good old days..

I'll Be
Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes, that color them wonderful.
Stop me and steal my breath.
Emeralds from mountains, thrust towards the sky,
Never revealing their depth.

Tell me that we belong together...
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above.

I'll be your crying shoulder.
I'll be love suicide.
I'll be better when I'm older.
I'll be the greatest fan of your life..

And rain falls angry on the tin roof,
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof,
My love is alive not dead.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love..
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above..

I've been dropped out
Burned up
Fought my way back from the dead.
Tuned in
Turned on
Remembered the things that you said..

I'll be your crying shoulder.
I'll be love suicide.
I'll be better when I'm older.
I'll be the greatest fan of your life..

The one about Marsha

*sigh* *curse* *sigh*

I hardly talk about Marsha in here.. partly because she's too precious to me that i find it hard to write about her publicly in my blog... hurm..

Recently i have been getting a lot of people requesting me to write about her in this blog.. Something like Mr.Manager, Badrul and Ibstyler. Stuffs on her career and what not.. BUT THEN AGAIN.. it's my friggin blog ok.. so it shud be about me.. me.. me.. and me.. hhaha..

No seriously, I just don't think i'm that good of a manager pun.. Marsha deserves someone way better than me. The girl has so much potential. Sometimes i wonder if i will ever be good enough for her. I'm just lucky that she's not really the demanding type. So it gives me time to buck up and be better..

Then again, she's a big part of my life these days..

So screw it! You guys win.

So here u go.. my first ever entry on MARSHA.

Marsha is a nice girl.

So there u go.. my very first entry on Marsha..

Hahahaha.. take care dudes n dudets!

i'm just...

Let's see...

At 25..

By day.. I run an IT company, an established software house.

By the rest of the day.. I am a brand manager for a local celebrity but I play artiste manager most of the time.

By the time i rest from the days.. I take a break.. I lay on the sofa, with my head on one end and my feet on the other.. thinking of concepts and designs.

By then.. i'm an art director.

My father has always been a workaholic for as long as i can remember. I hated the fact that i hardly see him when growing up. Every year, he made no time to attend any of my prize giving ceremonies, although he was the one to set the bars for my academics. I was surely gonna get hit if i had done bad. But he never came to collect my report card during parent-teacher day. He hardly even picked me up from school. He never saw me swim for my school. He never saw my work for school productions.

He always knew that I'm into films, theaters and all that in between. He knew that my childhood ambition was to be a film director. But he never knew where it all started. I hate that. But i love that he brought me to places around the globe for school holidays and made special routes to let me explore the world of film making. I love that he let me have his Handycam when i went to boarding school. I love that he could afford to send me for film courses without any objections.

Had he spent time with me, he would have known why i like what i love.

But if he had spent time with me, he might have not been able to give me what i own.

My hero was and is a workaholic.

I hate him and love him for that.

People say i am one.

I say, I'm just being my father.

My strongest influence.

Talking about being fair.. adil dan saksama.

Last saturday i was in JB judging an audition.. YES, i am that cool ok.. hahahha.. Sometimes i doubt my self if i cud ever be fair to the myself and to the people surrounding me.

I love arguing and debating on issues. And if you know me well enough, i get very defensive when i know exactly where i stand.. and i only debate on issues that i really know and have a strong stand in what i believe.

Can i ever be fair? like really fair?

Anyway, the audition was alright... i guess. We're looking for people with a package.. talent, looks.. lalala.. But honestly, i was goin mental at a certain point.. hahah.. But no doubts, there were plenty good ones and A LOT of the bad ones of course..

So this girl.. aged aroung 18 or so came up on stage. She does have a smiley and cheerful face so after two sessions of suicidal performances, i guess i cud use some smiley faces... hehe

So this girl came up on stage and sang 2 malay songs when Naufara (the other judge) asked her to sing somthing english. And then this was what happened:

First song.. Malay song.. can't remember.. but it was good.. Her voice i mean.
*girl stops singing*
Me : *Writing on my score sheet. "43/50"
Naufara : Adik, boleh nyanyi english song tak?
Me : *Yawning* not concentrating because i'm getting really tired and my boo has been sms-ing me asking when i'll be back.
The Girl : Boleh
Naufara : Ok.. cuba?
Me : scribbling away to ease my boredom.

The girl then clears her throat.. ehem ehem.. and sings..

"What if I never knew
What if I never found you
I never had
This feeling in my heart..."

Me : *Scribbled off 43..*

and wrote 50/50!

My quote of the day..
"You sing Destiny
I give u Fifty!"

One day in Lala Land.

Busy busy busy busy day... but u'know wat... I'm happy today... HAPPIEST day of the week.

Taken.

Jakarta.

Somehow..

31st January 2009
Amcorp Mall
4.30-ish PM

ABPH - NSTP Gaza Fund Raising

X ( Celebrity A's Manager) : Hey!
Me : Oh hey!
X : Lama tak jumpa!
Me : Yah.. how u?
X : Ok ok.. ngan Heliza?
Me : No lah... Marsha.
X : Oh? Tak lagi ngan Heliza? What happened?
Me : .....................................................................

P ( Celebrity E, N and N's Manager) : Haa..
Me : Haa..
P : Cat mana?
Me : Takde..
P : Oo arini u ngan heliza ke?
Me : erm.. tak ah.. Marsha
P : Ooooooooo yaaaa...

hmmm... somehow..

I guess it doesnt help that we hardly go places or attend events together even if it has been almost 3 years... I guess keeping a low profile does have it's price too..


Not good during times like this... hmm

Sorry sorry...

Haa.. i just realized that i have not updated my blog since we jumped into 2009..

How's my 2009 so far? Sofaruddin Al-Sogood laaa.. it's been crazy but good.

I'm currently working towards the Anugerah Juara Lagu, 'managing' Heliza.. Yeah, it will be my last day with her on Sunday.. It's sad but alrite.. I'm happy with things and how things turned out and turning out to be..

Anyway.. don't forget to catch the 23rd Anugerah Juara Lagu Sunday at 9pm on TV3.. Sorry i've ran out of tix.. i'll ask for more if anyone's interested but i can't promise anything..

Alrite.. going off now.. To pick up dress, to rehearsals to makan to see parents.. memacamlah.. penat!

My 2008

Rewind...
My 2008

I came back to KL after 6 years.
To where i belong.

I hated Penang.
But i miss it so much now.

I traveled to India.
20 days of hardcore adventure.

I got an apartment.
A crib i can finally call MINE.

I shifted my life.
For something more meaningful and significant.

I feel burdened.
With commitments and responsibilities.

I work hard.
To support my new life.

I made friends.
With the greatest souls.

I turned 25.
2 more years to go before i settle down.

My heart was broken.
Someone lost in transition.

I turned manager.
For someone i love and adore.


Fast forward... What will be my 2009?
In the Middle East with Marsha looking fabulous than ever.

Goodbye 2008.

Misha Omar is my current obsession..

Ye ke?

Hahahahha.. No lah.. but I'm playing her latest single "Jawapanmu" over.. and over.. and over again.. target sampai muntah ler.. hahahah.. (Cat's done it again.. And Misha is still a good singer..)


Yesss! Misha finally came up with a new album.. after 841 years of meditation. FINALLY.. An Album titled - MISHA OMAR.. is that the title?

I got mine on the 2nd of December 2008, the day of its release.. Semangat okay.. bertahun tunggu ni.. When i first got hold of the copies, i flipped the CD case to look at the titles off the songs.. Just to be sure it's not a CD apebendetah karaoke ke ape ke before i buy it.. Then, at first look, I realized that the album appears so much like a compilation than an album album.. get what i mean?

See.. there are 11 tracks altogether in the album.. in which are:
1-Jawapanmu *
2-Sampai Di Sini *
3- Sembunyi
4-Cinta Adam & Hawa *
5-Nafas Cahaya
6-Cinta Suci *
7-Ku Seru
8-Cinta
9-Nafas Cahaya (minus one)
10-Sembunyi (minus one)
11-Jawapanmu (minus one)

In which also means.. Only 4 out of the 11 songs are new!.. (tagged with * in the list above).. that makes 36.36% of the album saje new.. WHAT?!! I was kindda disapointed with it.. suddenly feeling fanatik ok... hahaha.. I mean since when is minus one a track in a full album? Considering i don't sing and i don't need a minus one to accompany me in the bath, having 3 minus ones doesn't really do me justice now, does it? Maybe i should make like a karaoke video? Hmmm..

Well, to be honest.. yes.. i was kindda pissed.. because i waited all these years with so much hope and anticipation.. i even planned to send a surat layang to Misha saying that if she doesn't release an album soon, i'm considering to move to Nigeria to overcome this depression... hahahaha.. erm..

But then, i came to my senses.. I guess, its not entirely wrong to only have 4 unreleased songs in a "new" album.. Considering that it's a trend for many artistes these days to survive on singles.. I figured, it's not Misha's fault that her album has only 4 new songs.. This only means that her singles were all successful. Those new songs were made popular before the album released. So popular that when compiled in an album, the songs were no longer considered 'fresh' despite the fact that they have never been released in an album before.

In general, despite the album being so much like a compilation.. i thought the very few new songs were strong ballads with different types of moods. Misha has always been good at singing really sad songs.. with her ability to sing with crying sensation or whatever you wanna call it, she made songs like "Pulangkan" an important element to the feel of the movie 'Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam".. For this album, "Sampai di sini" is not my type of song, but she did do her magic in lifting up the mood of the song.. So good that it made me so depressed listening to it!

For me, the best way to appreciate Misha is by watching her perform live on stage.. I just LOVE her selamba yet classy showmanship.. When this girl goes on stage, it seems as though she’s just having so much fun!.. I know some of you can’t stand the terkangkang and the overly bending bit that she does when performing.. But u know what? If Christina Alguilera can sing like a gorilla mengamuk.. Then, is it wrong for a Malaysian to have some sort of a weird singing trade? I don’t think soooo.. So that, my dear.. is called - STYLE .... ngok! ..

Well. tak suka-tak suka pun.. people will remember her singing like that.. The point is -- At least, people do remember her.. I wonder when will she be doing her act at Planet Hollywood again? Any idea?

It took Misha 3-4 years to complete the album.. Well, people.. producing an album is not as easy as it looks like.. The investment and effort put into it is not just dollars and cents.. I would know better cos Marsha herself is struggling to get her first album released despite the many songs that have already been recorded over the past 3 years being in the business... *sigh*.. really praying that 2009 will be a good year. Wish us luck!

In general and in my honest opinion, this fresh release is not really up to Misha Omar's standard.. I still think Aksara is the best.. The first one "Misha" was good because it had Bunga-bunga Cinta in it and of course the "first-album-factor".. So, this one could have been better but then again, i don't think i wanna wait any longer.. hahahha.. so Misha.. it's ok.. i forgive you.. wah!.. The songs are all good, but half of them were in the 2007 Muzik-muzik.. So, it's just the matter of how you look at it.

Whatever it is... it is still worth spending your RM29.90 for a copy.. Highly Recommended.

Support the Malaysian Music Industry.

Burrpp...

OMG!! I feel like puking... nak muntah dah ni...

Today i stayed in and managed to finish up 2 websites... Gila tak?? AND now i feel so nauseous...

http://www.cherrytalent.com.my

http://www.marshalondoh.com

I like this whole brand management thing.. i love it so much that i can be insanely ridiculously committed to a project.. Guys, check out those websites and tell me what you think about the design essentially... i need your opinion because at this moment, i have ran out off creative juice and ready to puke anytime.. hehehe

Anyway... I promised to write on the Muzik-muzik semifinal thingy.. tapi tetibe after the overdose designing work.. i macam malas.. bleh? hahahah.. So i guess i'll post up photos je lah bleh? I letak yang ni dulu lah.. because i took pics using Syuib's camera.. and i havent seen him since.. busy ler.. kate manager kan... ahahhaha..

But here's some for the time being yar..



Nanti i letak lagi...

Ehmm.. motif gambar stacy first? Haaa.. itu yg kita tatau..

Makan....

I told Marsha two months ago that there will not be any extravagant birthday party for her this year like she normally has because she hasn't achieved much over this past year... The truth is, she has shown a lot of improvement and maturity over the past few months and for that, she has achieved a lot over a short period of time... She did it.. But of course i didn't tell her. So, she will still not be getting a birthday party this year.

My reason -- the past few months is still less than 12 months..

Well, i said 'no party'.. i didn't say we wont be celebrating right?


Happy 23rd Birthday Luv.

So that happened on Thursday... A very private dinner among the closest ones.. Bob n Marsha cooked.. Yes, birthday girl tetiba cooked and made desserts and all.. hahahah.. sedeh!

Marsha's Speghetti Bolognaise & Fruit Pudding.

Later that night, we opened the doors to Zarina, Joe Klubbkidd and Fahmee.. in which led to the next day..... MUZIK-MUZIK Semi finals - Pop Rock.. the last one.

I'll write on that in the next entry.. sebab gambar takda yang best-best lagi.. Lagipun nanti i won't have anything to write about, lepas tu Fiyad complain my blog tak update... hehehe.. I stayed backstage because i was just menyibuk-nyibuk je.. no strings attached.. ahahahah.. well, i figured i had worked my time during Etnik Kreatif and Balada.. So datang je laa Pop Rock.. it's the last one anyway..

But just to give you guys a sneak preview of whats to come in the next entry.. Dedicated to my fellow BBGSian friends..

Makan ati tak?? MUAAHAHHAHAAHHA! *Devilish laugh* .... Oops! Terlebih sudah!

And one last one...

Take that biatches!

Muzik Muzik Muzik

"Don't aim for success if you want it;

just do what you love and believe in, and it will come naturally."
- David Frost

The past two weeks have been quite a fulfilling journey, for me at least.. I have gone through the best moments and the worst. And honestly, despite being so washed off and so lethargic for days, my overused body was filled with spirit... all 14 days.

"You're young..." That's always the remark i get... Yes, 3years ago when i started.. But now? I'm 25... If anything else, i should have some sense of desperation..

I'm 25. I'm getting old. I need to be somewhere.

Or at least, that's how i feel.. Huhuhu.. i'm feeling old.. I get tired easily, i'm more serious on things... i avoid having flings though my heart wants too, it's hormonal i presume... i eat durian more than i used to... i'm beginning to appreciate hot and spicy KFC... i shop for curtains!.. what else? hahahah.. signs of old age..

Oh well... whatever that is..

I was looking forward to this year's Muzik-muzik semifinals.. Honestly, normally i couldn't be bothered with these stuffs.. But since i've put my serious heart into this business (see.. i warned u.. i'm getting old...), i HAVE to make some effort into getting some studying, practicing and networking done...

So the story of my 14 day agenda begins...

It all started off way back when Syuib, my husband asked for some advice on certain things regarding the promotion of the song Cinta Terhalang.. From then onwards, we have been working hand-in-hand towards achieving our individual goals.. And when Cinta Terhalang was listed for the AJL semis.. it was time to learn...


On the side, Heliza and Mawi made the cut too.. Not only to the semis.. but straight off to the finals.. I agree that the Etnik Kreatif category has lost it's magic since Siti stopped making Nirmala-ish type of songs and Noraniza Idris retired.. And the standard of the competition within this particular category itself has somewhat been lowered over the past few years... Partly because most the songs sound more POP-ish than it should.. gone are the days when Pak Ngah made music.

So YES, i agree that Doa Dalam Lagu is a song that is fortunate to be at the right place, at the right time.. With its popularity, its well done performance and its 'less-pop-more-ethnic' music, it is expected that the song goes to the finals.. So Congratulations to Heliza, Mawi, Ajai... and of course to be remembered, the late Loloq .. Al Fatihah.


Heliza is one of a kind.. Behind the flawless skin, the beautiful eyes, the elegance of a young woman glowing into adulthood lies a regular person with so much desires and flaws that comes within..

Heliza arrived in KL at midnight on Monday, about 5 days before the big night.. As soon as she arrived, all she had in mind was the AJL semifinals.. For the next few days, her life revolves around the preparation towards giving her best shot. She was excited, happy, worried, angry, sad for just 1 cause -- AJL Semi Final.

On Monday, less than 24 hours in KL, she settled every bit of errands there is for her to get over and done with prior to the competition... Well.. not all that important for me to blog but just incase you're wondering.. getting ready for an artiste involves things like eye cream and another maroon hijjab because the old maroon hijjab has been used one too many times..Hahaha.. things we normal people don't need to care about.. Now, please feel lucky u're invisible!

*shopping for the right scarf.

That night i had a meeting with Syuib and Ruher regarding some work.. As arranged, we met up at about 8pm.. Heliza tagged along.. Bob was there.. So, for the full 3 hours of my business discussion with Syuib and Ruher, Heliza went through a vocal bootcamp with Bob... While we enjoyed the ambiance of the coffee house that night, sipping our hot drinks while pouring some fresh ideas, Heliza rehearsed with Bob in a small confined studio called - THE CAR... Hahahah.. It was all technical vocal coaching.. Just what she needs at that point... A help in refining her style.. Heliza is not a vocal acrobat.. A range too wide, or a note too high may not be best.. But she knows how to sing..

At the end of the day, when she sang to me her lines... her tune was more refined.

For the next 3 days to come, her days were filled with rehearsals and vocal warm up.. Many mishaps took place over the 3 days but i think that's not our concern now la kan.. hahhaha.. All i can say, Heliza has done a good job just keeping herself focused.

So the big day came.

Less than an hour before leaving the house, Heliza found a new style for the song intro bit.. So the trip to Shah Alam was filled with nothing but just the intro of the DDL song, rehearsed over and over and over.. and over.. and over again.

She arrived the venue at 5pm sharp... hahah.. thanks to NPE.. She mingled around for a bit before heading to the make-up room..

Bottom eyelashes that Marsha got her from Jakarta...

2 hours before call time.. Heliza gave her last shot rehearsing... There were people around.. Cheryl Samad was doing her hair.. but sometimes at times like this, it's best to be embarrased than sorry... hahaha.. well, i mean it in a good way.. i mean she has to push her shyness away and do what is best.. If she's not confident yet, especially with her new found ad-libs, she needs to work it out before the real thing.. And for a newbie, it's okay to be a little bit ambitious... ;)

* 1hr and half to go..

*Minutes before going on stage...

Time came... She gave her best shot.. Honestly, it was the best ever.. It was a duet, but she stood out.. She worked hard for it... And for that she deserves to be in the final...

And also for that..
A standing ovasion.

If u're a fan of Heliza.. you should be proud.. In away, this is a sign of her appreciation to all the support that has been given.. :)


Last week was Bob's turn to fight in the Balada category.. Sad to say we didn't make it.. We were frustrated.. But it's okay... It was a tough competition anyway.. This is just the beginning.. We are all still learning.. Learning.. learning.. and learning.. But a big round of applause to Bob for an outstanding performance..

Suddenly I dun think i'm ready to talk more about it yet.. let's wait till the whole AJL Semi Final thing is over.. but here are some pictures to share..




We had our postmortem at Pelita Bangsar then adjourn to THE CRIB for some emotional session.. hahahaha.. kidding!

Makan n makan lagi while expressing feelings like.. "Patah pun aku masih beradat dan beretika!"..

The losing celebration.. hahahahha... Kek Lapis Sarawak...

This week Pedd and the cats will be doing their bit for Pop Rock..
Good Luck Luv.

and also Good Luck Mila & Stacy.. *blush* *wink* *blush*

Oh.. there's so much to learn!

Everyone can do it!

It was a boring day at work.. (despite the fact that i've been procrastinating a lot these days..) So i browsed around aimlessly in the cyberspace like a cyber astronaut, siap buat moonwalks with my fingers.. (and i bumped into a website which kept me occupied for the next few minutes...



See...
Not only that everyone can fly.. Now, everyone can compare!!



When Air Asia came up with the tagline "Now Everyone Can Fly".. what it meant was that with this new 'thing', we can fly easily rite? Let alone the deals.. The online booking tool and easy check in itself is a revolutionary flying experience.. at least for Malaysia.

So does this mean that apparently we now have a tool that can help us compare?.. How cool is that?!

I always get screwed by certain people telling me not to compare Puteri Gunung Kinabalu Ledang with Puteri Balqis when i wasnt even comparing.. In fact, i was just (what i like to call) "sharing examples".. Whereas growing up, my mom likes to compare me with my cousins (and.. of course i'm the bad apple laa kan).. it's always unfair.. but guess what?

Now everyone can compare!

But sadly it's just comparing hotel rates between travel sites...


Damn!

M of the jungle : The product.

Title : Rediscovering Marsha Londoh
Creative Director : Syad Rosli
Photographer : Atiqah Hidayu > website
Prod. Assistant : Shafinaz Rahman
Clothing : iNNAi Batik > website

M of the Jungle..

Phew! *with a big grin!*

We finally managed to do the long awaited photoshoot.. and from my grin *still grinning*, it was a good one.. Alhamdulillah!

We hiked up 1.4km in the reserved jungle... all covered with insect repellents and proper shoes early in the morning just to get the right amount of sun.. The crew - Atiqah Hidayu (Photographer) , Nur Shafinaz (Prod Asst), Marsha Milan Londoh (Subject), Dato' Sri Syadha Rosli (Creative Director).. oh and not to forget clothes by iNNAi.. Thanks Izrin for the sponsor!

Flashing back to a few weeks ago, when i was looking for the right venue for the photoshoot -- I received many reactions.. Many thought the idea of bringing Marsha to the middle of the jungle and asking her to strike a pose for the camera is just bizzare, crazy and impossible..

"Marsha masuk hutan? Gila ke?"
"Boleh ke dia tu?"
"Kau gila ke syad? Buat studio dah laa.. kesian budak tu.."

One thing about me...
I might sound rediculous sometimes..
But i usually know what i wish for..
You can demotivate me..
But i can motivate myself if believe in something..
AND ..
I only wish for what i believe in.

Well, lets just say i want to push her to the limits.. After all, Marsha was a Pathfinder.. remember?

Anyway, thats passed and we did it after all.. With an awesome small crew, we pulled it off together with fun and success.. I always admired Atiqah's work and always wanted to do a photoshoot with her.. She's not a full time photographer and is still building her portfolio, so i thought it would be just nice to have her shoot this time..

We didn't encounter much problems.. It was a perfect sunny day.. only that lead the crew through the wrong path in the beginning that cost us about 15minutes of hiking and turning back.. my bad! hahahah...

Marsha was such a sport.. I guess she's used to the jungle that often times, despite the short sleeveless white dress, she was ahead of us.. Whereas we were left far behind scratching away.. On top of that she voluntarily took off her shoes so we could get a raw looking picture...

Walking barefoot.. And yet no leeches cared to hump on those sexy legs! .... And us? Jangan cerita ler.. As we speak, i have 2 pacat spots on my legs and i was fully covered! Not Fair!

All and all we did 4 sets - Jungle, Oak Forest, Open Field, Waterfall.. I'm only gonna put in here the making of the jungle set.. Partly because i want to keep the others exclusive for the rebranding... AND partly because.. i only have these in my computer at the moment!.. Hahhahhhaha..

Find Marsha... she left us.. *sigh*

We wrapped up around 2pm.. It was tiring but fun.. All 4 shots had their identity.. i'll post up some samples once i get hold of the stock..

The photoshoot is meant for the re-branding of Marsha Londoh.. It's the baby project that Marsha and I am working on now.. I wanted all her character, personality, background to come together.. On top of that, a sense of 'searching' and 'discovering' - hence the concept.

"Buat je kat Studio.. and then superimpose", said a few comrades of mine.

Well, i guess we could do it in the studio.. but how about 'No' this time? I might be a bit traditional, but i like to do things on the actual set.. It gives a different mood.. And of course a priceless photo.. Unless you have a million dollar CGI studio, i don't think it is the same..

Do you watch America's Top Model? Did they just stay in the studio n shoot everything?.. That's just how they do it in the States.. I remembered Reese Witherspoon once had to pose in between branches on a tree in the middle of the cold autumn with a strapless dress.. Oh well, they could have done Lord of The Rings in the studio but no.. they chose New Zealand instead. Why?

Go Figure.

I finally lost my innocence...

It's always good to take time off and hang out with old friends.. old school friends.. Because you are what you are because of your past... So, it is good to take time to cherish what you have, what you had and what you might loose one day.

Yesterday, as planned... i picked Fiyad up from KLSentral (in which sesiang lagi si Fyad ni dah kene maki ngan i la kan..heheh.. sorry babe.. just too used to being 'that kind'..) and we left for Ulu Klang.. i mean Kunang-Kunang.. supposedly to celebrate Haizura's Bday n Sara's Farewell....

I don't feel like writing much because the whole time we were gossiping.. and kalau dah tulis kat public, takde laa gossip kan? Gossip tu kene ckp blakang-blakang haa... Oh ya.. Again, when there's BBGS.. there has to be drama.. drama.. dramaa.. and more drama..

The Cast...
Scene 1 : The monk and the retarded angels..


Scene 2 : Confucious say.. " See No Evil, Speak No Evil, Hear No Evil"..
Yelah tu.. padahal baru gossip...

Scene 3 : Look.. Apparently the monk is GAPSY's new manager...
Yes guys, i memang ade cita-cita nak jadi manager Gapsy tau.. 12 tahun mak tunggu taw... *sigh*


Scene 4: Kill Gapsy's manager!!
The Last Quote before dying :
"Kill me and one of the Gapsies will grow up to be a fabulous cat... No, not Nani.. Not Sara.. Nope, also not Loula.. "

Anyway.. time tengah shooting... as usual laa phone bunyi.. Tapi Syuib darling yg call.. so takpe.. hehehe.. angkat laa.. tp yang lain diam pliss..


Then we took a break kejap laa.. because shooting ni memang tiring... During the break, we had cupcakes.. Julie made it specially in celebration of Sara and Hai..


Cute... very pink and purple... reminds me of.. erm... who is in Jakarta at the mo'... *khayal jap*... ehemm.. it's nice... the cake i mean... orange cupcakes.. Apparently Julie is starting her own cupcake business .. So siapa nk bole laa pegi order ngan dia ye...

The designs.. if u notice.. there's a few that had a school badge.. hahah.. BBGS FOREVER gitu!.. I think all the designs were pretty and straight forward...

BUT Somehow.. when i requested for the cupcake with "BR" on it from the word "CELEBRATING", in which i pronounced it as "B.R - BRA"... And this was wat happened..

Me : Ayu.. can you take one for me?
Ayu : Which one do u want?
Me : The one with BRA.. B.R.. BRA..
*Ayu took one out from the box and handed to me.. *
Ayu : Nah...

Seriously.... In my eyes those were nothing but just balloons... But Ayu saw things beyond that..

I lost my innocence that night... *sigh*

Ayu..... This is for giving me 3 boobies!!

Hai and Sara.. the two celebrated one.. AND Sasha.. the... erm.. one with the BBGS badge cake.


At the end of the night i finally got hold of the BR cake.. Pheww!!... and AT as well that spells.. B.R.A.T!

It was all goooood...

Finding One That Fits.

Let's just say... I'm up to something.

Not really that big.. well at least for now.. but it's enough to put me into some emergency that calls for desperate measures.

Slam me now... Shoot me now.. Criticize me now.. Demotivate me now..

Some friends say i'm too patient, it's almost ridiculous..
Some say, i'm too smart for something too small..
Some say, i'm blinded by one who's not worth.

Say whatever you want to say.. Say it now.

We have been walking together for more than 3 years now.

Being apart.. (let me rephrase.. 'away and apart'..) was necessary.. If it had not happen, we don't think we would reach this point where we kindda in mutual, unspoken understanding, depend on each other to make 'the-life' worth something..

And after 3 hard, glamorous, scandalous years... We have decided that it's time to take the ship to the notorious pacific ocean.. take off the high heels.. get into the deep sea.. what we see now is just of the iceberg.. let's give it a shot.

This is the closest replica of the Bermuda Triangle that we can ever get to.

For that, we have a lot to learn.
Good Luck to us..

Politeknik..

Obama won!..
I voted during the John Kerry - George Bush battle... but not this time.. Well, i din think i needed to.. Obama was an obvious winner.. plus i'm now a proud Malaysian... Suci, bersih dan murni gitu... woot woot!

But i do wish that our political system works like how America does it... I mean, not that it works la kan.. they're pretty much screwed up at one point too.. ahhahaha... but then again, mana ada country yang really that politically perfectly functional kan?.. Politics ARE MEANT to be dysfunctional.. if it's that perfect... man.. mcm tak politik je kan.. tak cukup drama to call it 'politics'..

I mean.. i like the fact that they get to choose who will be fighting for the Presidential seat starting from within each party.. then stage by stage.. with all the debates and candidate battles.. kira betul-betul kena fight laa.. Not because your the chairman of the democratic party.. then automatically u and the president of parti tupperware will be the only candidates for the presidential seat.. Get wat i mean?

Oh well...

Quay Sera Sera...

4.30am... after a long night of 'partying'.. I finally rested my head on my over puffed pillow.. diving into a deep sleep.. when suddenly The Office theme song came on in my dreams as if it was a soundtrack... Hmm.. i think my dreams could use some soundtracks but deffinitely not a theme song from The Office!

The song kept playing over and over again... i guess it finally pushed the buttons and woke me up..

Well, yea.. my cellphone ringtone is the theme song from The Office... and Yes, I am obsessed with The Office!

It was my friend... let's just call her Tinkerbell.. imagine 6 misscalls at 4.30-ish am.. ''It must be an emergency," i thought.. AND... there u go again, her 7th attempt to get hold of me..

Me : Hey... Watsap? Everything okay? * my huskiest, 'baru-bangun-tido' voice*
Her : Hey syad... thank god..
Me : Where r u? u ok?
Her : I'm at home.. ya, ok kot..
Me : Wuzzup? *Still groggy and drowsy*
Her : I need your help..
Me : *trying to clear my throat.. ehem.. ehemmm..* .. Sure.. Wuzzup?
Her : I'm confused..
Me : Uhuh? (Dalam hati : pulaaakk...)
Her : I really need your help..
Me : Yelaa.. ape die? What r u so confused about? u ok or not?
Her : I ok... tapi ntah.. i confuse
Me : *got up from bed, off to the toilet to pee* .. uhuh? *guggled some water*.. wazzup?
Her : I dunno if i should take the Air Asia job, or stick to modeling, or continue with my designing stuff...
Me : What?!! (Dalam hati : What the fork and spoon?!)
Her : Hehehe.. sorry laa.. but it's bugging me.. I takleh tido thinking of it..
Me : Well, i tak boleh tido almost everyday... *Still in the what the fudge mode*
Her : I really need your help..
Me : Do we really have to do this now?
Suddenly i felt the urge to put my head in the toilet bowl and flush it down the drain. Argh!!!
Her : Urm...
Me : Ok fine.. but better be worth it!
Her : Ok ok ok... thanks.. i really need your opinion..
Me : Y me?
Her : Because u're always a good advisor.. plus it's sumthing ur familiar with.
Me : Familiar?? Air Asia recruiters tengok i pun boleh muntah berdarah... Modeling agency mmg terus buasir terkeluar anak perut semua laaa...
Her : Hahahaahaha.. noooo... i mean u're always surrounded by the hottest people..
Me : Ermmm... I ain't no pimp.. (Dalam hati : does this mean like.. u think u're hot and what not??? Am I still dreaming?)
Her : I know u Syad..
Me : Anyway... what opinion do u want..
Her : If it was you.. what would you choose?
Me : Which are?
Her : Stewardess, Model, Designer?
Me : If it was really me.. designer laa.. sbb hell i know there wud be no place for me for the other two..
Her : Ok ok.. kalau u're all that...
Me : Define 'all that'...
Her : All hot n gorgeous..
Me (dalam hati) : If i was hot and gorgeous, i would smack you right on your face and break your nose right now!!! Yeah, that's what i'd do!

Urghhhh...

Don't blame Thinkerbell for calling me early in the morning for opinions.. She's not the only one.. I get calls asking "Should i wear red or pink?" at 3am in the morning because it is urgent... Seriously, I'm ok with it.. For a certain people who are precious to me.. yes, it is expected of that..

But u see... don't ask me questions like that.. It will make me flush my head down the toilet bowl... tak elok... seriously!! busuk dalam toilet bowl tu...